The folksy Southern cooking queen tearfully took to NBC “Today” show Wednesday for the first time to talk about the racism scandal that has rocked her cooking empire. She said that she is in “somewhat in a state of shock” over what she said has been “hurtful lies said about me.”

Asked by host Matt Lauer whether she was a racist, Deen said, “No, I’m not.”

“If there’s anyone out there that has never said something that they wished they could take back, if you’re out there, people pick up that stone and throw it so hard that it kills me,” Deen said near the end of her interview.

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